After All

You hurt me like a motherfucker, but life is too good to waste. so im atleast going to pretend im okay. i dont get it anymore. tbh i just really need to get my head straight. im done with waiting, waiting for awnsers, for replys, for you to just fucking say something. your so confusing why were we wasting out time? im glad you can controll how you feel but really i cant. take a breathe. . i hope you aint waiting. this time im playing like you are. if you want to talk to me talk. but im sick and tired of being the only one in this. did i care too much? i care about you alot, but it really comes down to how much you care ai. i'll soon find out. lets see how long you drag this out for. im not going too let you stand in my way. ive waited almost a year. for what? jackshit really. i thought maybe i stood a chance in having you. i belived if you wanted something really bad you would get it. i really did. till i lost you for good. atleast it feels like it. the only bit of hope i had left, you took it away from me. and now you dont even have anything too say. wont even talk to me. sadguy.