Barbie Melted Her Plastic Heart.

i start to smile cos'
everything is okay.
you can decide shit,
but you cant do anything when,
it changes.
but too be honest,
i like change.
i never thought id even get back,
me back,
you back.
like i dont have to fake it anymore.
papermache' and barbie dolls,
pretending to-be,
and everything fake.
something you cant be.
but you just dont stop trying.
even if i cant have you,
you are the best part of me.
maybe thats why i get excited,
and my mood changes so much,
maybe its because,
i cant choose how i feel,
did you ever think,
i dont want to?
ive been waiting so long,
but i still reckon its worth it.
sometime i dont,
i really do want to back out.
but i just cant?
i know.
you wont hurt me.
but its just a million dollar question;
isnt it?
you give my body,
such a rush.
so many butterflies,
and make me smile,
countless smiles.
i still want to know why.
then again.
it gets kinda exciting,
when things JUST happen,
like the old days when,
we let it happen.
like these days when.
im still wondering,
whats gonna happen.
im not going anywhere.
i love you.